So called Christians

   Okay here goes another ranting post and probably won't be as long and will probably offend people.
   Okay my problem I am having today is the so called "christians". The I think gays and Trans are terrible and are an abomination so I must judge them and treat them diffrently because it's against my religion.

Everyone who is arrogant in heart is an abomination to the Lord; be assured, he will not go unpunished.

Proverbs 28:9

  I am pretty sure calling gays and Trans an abomination is the the same as stating that they are below us and makes us arrogant. The definition of being arrogant is having or revealing an exaggerated sense of one's own importance or abilities.
   We aren't better than them if we think we are. Just because it is against your religion doesn't mean we can hate them or treat them diffrently.
      Beloved, let us love one another, for love is from God, and whoever loves has been born of God and knows God. Anyone who does not love does not know God, because God is love. In this the love of God was made manifest among us, that God sent his only Son into the world, so that we might live through him. In this is love, not that we have loved God but that he loved us and sent his Son to be the propitiation for our sins. Beloved, if God so loved us, we also ought to love one another.

1 John 4:11

So if you don't show love and compassion to others because they are different from you, practice other religions, or have a different sexual preference, then you are not Christian. You are one of those people who claim to love God and just goes through the motions when people are around but still sin when you are by yourself.
       Not everyone who says to me, ‘Lord, Lord,’ will enter the kingdom of heaven, but the one who does the will of my Father who is in heaven. On that day many will say to me, ‘Lord, Lord, did we not prophesy in your name, and cast out demons in your name, and do many mighty works in your name?’ And then will I declare to them, ‘I never knew you; depart from me, you workers of lawlessness.’

1 John 1:8-10
 
    So before you claim to hate these people or share a page stating you are Christian and disagree with what they do, remember, God will make the final decision and judge them. That's not your job.

What is wrong with the world.

   Okay, so this will be sounding a little ranty and there will be a few typos, since I am using my phone.
   What is wrong with the world? Are we seriously this arrogant and think that we are better than everyone else. Who cares if he is black, who cares that she is mexican, who cares that he/she gay, bi, or transgender. I don't care and you want to know why? Because I am not them. I am my own person and live my own life. I swear that some people wake up and are like, "I'm going to make fun of this gay kid in class today." OR " I'm going to go to school today and shoot this person because there not my race. GET OVER YOURSELF. No one cares about your opnion, this isn't middle school anymore. If you have a problem with someone because their beliefs or race, you have a serious problem and need to go to a mirror, look at yourself for five minutes, and think how stupid you are being. (Might take longer if you are less intelligent then most)
     If you spend half the time worrying about your own life instead of complaining about everyone else, you might become something great, or actually make an impact in life.
    I read up on news articles around the world every now and then. It tears me apart. People trying take guns away, people wanting to make $15 at McDonalds, people shooting police just because they are police. I work with police everyday, and there is not a justified  reason to shoot a police officer. You speed, officer flights his lights on, and you keep driving. I hope he totals your car. You charge an officer, expect to get shot, I would shoot to. You do stupid stuff expect to get punished.
  I guess what I'm trying to say in this rant is that we need help and you guys need to stop being so stupid and grow a pair. I am disappointed in you America.

Just Writing

It's been one of those days.. Where everything feels rushed, but time is moving slow.. I'm walking past people I know and don't know, not acknowledging them. It is just one big blur of people and thoughts.
Is There a way to get out of this way, this bind of confusion? I'm suppose to be happy, I am happy.. I think. I'm just stuck in this trance that I can't fathom anything. I force myself to do so much, to make people be pleased of me.. I think I just need to stand up and do what I want in life and not what others want.I know that is probably a bad thing to say, but what would you do in this instance? The earliest I've been home from school was... I don't fully know, maybe six, six thirty. That was once or twice. Saturdays are sometimes my day off, but I haven't had a Saturday off for a long time. It's just so busy... Track, the play, the musical, choir, and band.. I just want to give up on half of it and just crawl into a little hole and sleep...

Life isn't all bad though. I have great friends and family. This support me, to an extent. They expect a lot out of me. Friends expect me to do great and believe I have so much potential of being great and successful. Which is a little ironic because I don't try in stuff. I put very little effort into most the thing I do, I just start out naturally better then most. I do try to be the person that people want, but It's difficult while you are in high school. I am nice to people, I don't lie when people ask me a question, I just speak what my mind thinks of. Unless it's like a terrible thing then, i usually keep it quiet. Like my preacher says, "Say what you mean, and mean what you say." I love that quote. It is very true.

So, I do not have much more time to type, so I am going to start to close this out. If anyone ever reads this, I doubt anyone will, just know that I'm not unhappy, I am not a bad person. I'm just sometimes confused and stuck in a daze. Just writing this little blog made me feel so much more. . . . real. Feels like I'm not hiding anything. The subject might be jumpy in spots, or the whole thing, but I was just typing what was on my mind. Some times it feels like I'm not good enough to be here on earth. Okay that's an exaggeration, feels like I don't deserve some of the friends and some of the belief people have in me. If you ever feel like you can't go on, or you don't feel like you have someone to trust, message me, or find me, I'll listen and try to help with whatever is troubling you..

                                                                                                 Musically Yours,
                                                                                                   Shelden Walker